Thursday, November 11, 2010

Pregnancy In A Nutshell

Pregnancy... what an experience! I have to say.. when I found out that I was pregnant, I was terrified! So many questions were racing through my mind like "How am I going to raise a child when Im basically still one myself?" and "What will people think of me when they find out?" I was so worried about what other people would think of me. It wasn't the way it was supposed to happen, right? You're supposed to be married first and then the baby comes later.. That wasn't the way it happened for me.. In a sense, I had it all backwards, and itt took me a long time to accept it. I knew that I had a precious life inside of me, but it was soo hard for me to accept it. All summer, I was upset because I couldn't ski with everyone else and i couldn't eat sushi (which is my favorite food, btw) and I couldn't do all the things that I wanted to be doing the summer after I graduated high school.. Zak helped me with this, a lot. He helped me see the positivity in having a baby and what a blessing it is to bring a child into this world. Even though Zak isn't the father of my child, he treats this little one inside me as if he was his own. He has been truly AMAZING.

Okay, so I guess I started to really accept Kerrington when I saw him for the first time in an ultrasound. He had such big feet and we knew as soon as we started looking that he was a boy. It was an extremely emotional time for both me and my mom, because at that moment, I knew that she had accepted it too. From then on we couldn't wait for this little boy to come into this world!

Pregnancy hasn't been easy.. I have a been extremely sick and very very tired for a lot of the time, but it has been such a rewarding experience.. Kerrington's kicks and punches, although a little annoying at times (especially when I'm trying to sleep at night and he's keeping me up) are what make all the needles and poking and Dr. appointments all worth while. 

I know I don't have too much time left and that I'm starting this Blog a little late, but I needed somewhere to put all the emotions I'm feeling, because I know not everyone on facebook really cares about the emotional part of me! haha 

Oh and on a side note, here's a picture of a part of the nursery! :)
I'm so excited to move this pak-n-play out of here and actually get a crib, because I LOVE the sheets and comforter I got for it! Im going with a Jungle Theme!


  1. Jess this is really cool and will be a great thing to put in Kerringtons scrapbook and to show him later in life. Sometimes writing down your emotions is the best way to deal with them, I have learned this from many experiences in life.
    I know that we dont know each other very well but I have heard many good things about you. I have enjoyed watching your journey on facebook and watching little Kerrington "grow". Btw his halloween costume was adorable. I am excited to see pictures of him once he arrives as well. You will be a great mom and tho there will be many tuff times its obvious you have a great support system of family, friends, and boyfriend to rely on through these times. So I just wanted to drop a note of encouragement and let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.


  2. Thank you so much, Darcy. You couldn't possibly imagine how much I needed this little message. It honestly means the world to me! Thanks again!

  3. Jess...this is an awesome idea! Writing is good for the soul! :) Hey, and I just wanted to tell you that I'm proud of you for stepping up and taking care of Kerrington. You're very lucky to have him and he's just as lucky to have you! Happy writing!