Waiting... Oh The Waiting

-Okay! So I know it has been WAY too long since I updated, but nothing much has happened to be honest.. I'm still waiting on this stubborn little boy of mine to come! I passed my original due date with flying colors, so now we're just waiting on the second one which is Feb 15! I'm hoping that I dont have to wait that long, though, because I have some serious plans for Valentines Day that involve me wearing a cute dress with leggings that I most definitely will NOT fit into if i still have a little baby in my belly! haha

Anyways, I am now going to the doctor every Wednesday for my OB check ups. As off two weeks ago, I am 85% effaced and 2 cm dilated.. There was no change from that last week when I was at the doctor, and my appointment today was cancelled, because of this "blizzard." So I'm calling tomorrow to reschedule! I'm hoping that there's been progress made, but if there's not I'm going to try to not to be discouraged. I know that he is in God's hands and that he will come when he is good and ready! :) I just hope that that time is soon!! haha

By the way... here is the last baby belly picture that I am taking before I go to the hospital to have him! :) Hopefully I'm not going to get too much bigger! Cross your fingers for me!!♥

Technically:: [[37 Wks 3 Days]]

CrAzY Couple Days

-It has been a CrAzY past couple of days at the Miller house. Mom and I both had doctors appointments on Friday; mine for my 31 week prenatal check up, and my mom's for her sinus infection. Everything looked normal, except for that when Dr. Stephens was doing my biweekly fetal measurements, he noticed that not everything was looking right with the size. I'm 31 weeks pregnant, but my uterus was only measuring about 26 weeks. He said it was odd, because it had been measuring perfectly. I have an ultrasound on November 28 to make sure that baby K is growing correctly, and that he isn't just sitting deep or my uterus isn't tipped. I'm a little nervous, of course, because I want him to be growing correctly; I feel at ease, though. I think everything will be okay. He's just a stubborn little boy! :)

Okay, on Saturday I went to get my 3d/4d ultrasound, and this is what we found..

Aww :) My Sweet little boy... I know may be a little biased, but I definitely think he is soo beautiful! His lips are mine, and for some reason... and I don't know how... but for some reason.. his nose looks exactly my dad, Curt's. I have NO idea how that is even possible considering I'm adopted... He has chubby little cheeks just like Jewel's and I don't know what his eyes look like, but I hope they're brown like mine!! We also saw on the regular 2d ultrasound that he has absolutely the LONGEST eyelashes and a head FULL of hair! I'm very excited, because i had absolutely no hair when I was born.

Okay so, as you can see, Friday and Saturday went pretty well. Today was a completely different story. I went to work feeling my normal, happy self. I mean, I was a little tired, but I always am at 9 o'clock in the morning. I got to work at about 10 and set up and got to work on my first client. I was about half way done with his haircut when I started to get a little dizzy... so I stepped back and told my client I would be right back. I went to the break room and drank a little bit of water and sat down for about a minute, but then went back out to finish my cut. I was about to trim his neck when it hit me. I just felt my face get hot, and I called over to Star (a coworker). I was trying to ask her to finish my cut, but i couldn't even say anything.. the next thing I knew, Star was waking me up, and I was on the floor. SCARY! They called 911 an put a cold rag over my head. The cold helped me to feel a little better, but I was definitely dizzy still and my now my fingers were tingling. Thank God that I didn't fall on my belly. The scariest part, I think, was that i fell with my shears in my hand!! We didn't even notice until I sat up to get in the stretcher and they were laying under my legs... all I could think of was whoa... that could have been sooo bad! Anyways, they took me to KCH and gave me an IV with some fluids, because I seemed a little dehydrated. I spent the next couple hours taking a few tests and just trying to relax. When I got my lab results back, the Doctor explained that I was newly anemic (which is normal during pregnancy) and that is why I feel week often. He also explained that I probably fainted, because baby K was sitting almost directly on my Vena Cava (the main artery that transports blood from the heart to the legs and then up to the head). He was cutting off the blood supply to my brain! Well no wonder I fainted. The doctor said there was nothing to worry about, but to just go home and get some rest for the rest of the day. I've been put on a strict 4 hrs of activity a day limit to help keep my strength up and to keep baby K from being under stress!

OUCH!

-So Kerrington is now facing towards my back, and instead of feeling kicks I am feeling outrageous back pain!! Now Zak, tylenol, and icy hot pads have been my best friends the past couple of days! On top of that, work doesn't help very much considering I work 7 to 8 hour days and come home with swollen ankles and feet! haha Okay, I'm done complaining now! I had to let some of these feelings out to someone else who isn't Zak... poor thing.. always has to listen to me complain about all of my different pains and not being able to sleep through the night. He's been so great, though. The sweetheart rubs my feet when I get home from a long day at work every time he is home and he went out and got me some stuff to try to ease the pain in my back and then rubbed my back for almost a half hour. I honestly don't know what I would do without him!! ♥


Oh and my mom got Zak the CUTEST picture frame ever! It's supposed to be for a picture of him and Kerrington, and it says, "Any man can be a Father... It takes someone special to be a Dad." 

Labor Dreams

So I have been having some extremely odd dreams lately, and  I told my doctor about them and he said that they were labor dreams... I had my first one when i was in my first trimester and basically i was in labor but i couldn't feel any pain, but everyone around me kept saying... "He's almost here! Push!!" and then when the head finally came out, it was the head of a Zebra!! Weird, right???!! I jumped so much that I woke myself up.. The next one I had was that me and my mom were both in labor and having babies at the same time (she was on the bed beside me). Another one that I had was that when I was in labor, they let me deliver Kerrington feet first and when the head was supposed to come out, it got stuck, and they told me that there was no way for them to get him out and i was just going to have to walk around like that forever... I just want to know if anyone else has freakishly weird dreams like I do, because when they're not about labor, they're about me holding the baby but never being able to see his face, or pushing an empty stroller around different stores pretending I had a baby in it... I want to know I'm not going crazy!! haha I know that this is supposed to be normal...but what the heck is normal anymore these days?

30 Weeks

-Okay so I'm now 30 weeks into my pregnancy which means only 10 weeks to go... 10 WEEKS TO GO!! The thought is so surreal! I just recently had my 27 week Glucose Tolerance Test appt.. I had been putting it off because I am DEATHLY afraid of needles. I made Zak go with me since my mom couldn't come and I am SOO glad that he did. It started with me having to drink this weird sugar drink... It wasn't too bad though actually.. It kind of tasted like flat Orange Crush pop... Anyways, the next hour was what was the worst. I was extremely anxious waiting on the blood draw. I also had to get a RoGAM shot at this appt as well because I have a negative blood type. So instead of waiting the ENTIRE hour to get my blood drawn, I passed the time by playing uno with Zak and Jewel and getting my shot early... Let me tell you. That was NOT fun. I did fine until she took the needle out after the blood draw.. that's where I passed out. I had to lay down for awhile, and put a cold rag over my head.
I have my next appt on Nov. 19th just for a regular OB check up, and then I get to see my little boy's handsome face on the 20th during my 3D/4D ultrasound! I am so excited! I'll post a pic as soon as I get one! :)

Pregnancy In A Nutshell

Pregnancy... what an experience! I have to say.. when I found out that I was pregnant, I was terrified! So many questions were racing through my mind like "How am I going to raise a child when Im basically still one myself?" and "What will people think of me when they find out?" I was so worried about what other people would think of me. It wasn't the way it was supposed to happen, right? You're supposed to be married first and then the baby comes later.. That wasn't the way it happened for me.. In a sense, I had it all backwards, and itt took me a long time to accept it. I knew that I had a precious life inside of me, but it was soo hard for me to accept it. All summer, I was upset because I couldn't ski with everyone else and i couldn't eat sushi (which is my favorite food, btw) and I couldn't do all the things that I wanted to be doing the summer after I graduated high school.. Zak helped me with this, a lot. He helped me see the positivity in having a baby and what a blessing it is to bring a child into this world. Even though Zak isn't the father of my child, he treats this little one inside me as if he was his own. He has been truly AMAZING.

Okay, so I guess I started to really accept Kerrington when I saw him for the first time in an ultrasound. He had such big feet and we knew as soon as we started looking that he was a boy. It was an extremely emotional time for both me and my mom, because at that moment, I knew that she had accepted it too. From then on we couldn't wait for this little boy to come into this world!

Pregnancy hasn't been easy.. I have a been extremely sick and very very tired for a lot of the time, but it has been such a rewarding experience.. Kerrington's kicks and punches, although a little annoying at times (especially when I'm trying to sleep at night and he's keeping me up) are what make all the needles and poking and Dr. appointments all worth while. 

I know I don't have too much time left and that I'm starting this Blog a little late, but I needed somewhere to put all the emotions I'm feeling, because I know not everyone on facebook really cares about the emotional part of me! haha 

Oh and on a side note, here's a picture of a part of the nursery! :)

I'm so excited to move this pak-n-play out of here and actually get a crib, because I LOVE the sheets and comforter I got for it! Im going with a Jungle Theme!